Less than 4 days!!

Well, c-section time has been set. (1:30 pm on the 15th.) I am officially in my last few days of pregnancy with my little guy! :) YAY!!

This weekend was spent as a family. We had a great time. It was sad to think that soon Kiwi will no longer be an only child, but a big sister. (Sad, but happy too.) I really hope she does well with having to share her Mommy. (I actually think she'll have a harder time sharing her Grammie and Grandpa.)

This past week has been a stressful and drama filled one for us, so the good weekend we had was much needed. This past Tues., G pressured and begged me to allow his Mom to visit the hospital. I have told him since before we did the ivf that I was not comfortable with her and do not wish to have visit me nor baby G while we are at the hospital. I was hoping that just his once my wishes would be honored and respected by this awful women....... I was wrong!! (I mean, who am I to set boundaries about who visits me while I am in the hospital recovering from a c-section surgery?) On Tues., I finally gave in. I was sick of fighting about it. I told G that she could have a SHORT visit the day after the baby was born. (I didn't want stress on son's bday.) Well, apparently she was ungrateful for what I was giving. Bc she proceeded to yell at G and tell him that she couldn't make it the day after bc she was busy all day that day running errands for our niece's dance recital that evening!!! ERRANDS!!! She still had 10 days left between Tues. and the following Friday (the day after my planned c-sec.) She went on to tell G that it isn't fair that my parents get to go to the hospital on the day the baby is born. Fair? Seriously lady? My parents never disowned us and abused us for over 5 years. In fact if it weren't for my parents loaning us the money for the ivf, we wouldn't even be pregnant!! My parents will also be babysitting Kiwi for us while at the hospital (and my Mom is staying after to help once I get home too. All mere days before hosting Christmas at her home for both sides of my family, and having family traveling and staying with from out of state and country. But, she isn't complaining about not having enough time for errands.) Plus, I am comfortable with my parents....which is really all that should matter. Anyway, I didn't back down. I said that if it is that important to her to see the baby at the hospital, she will only be allowed to do so on Friday (or the day after his birth, if he comes sooner.) She'll have to run her errands earlier. Well, she continued to call G and harass him about this issue for days. (She even called his siblings and dragged them into it.) Finally, yesterday she calls him to yell at him once again and then proceeds to tell him that she has decided that she is done with him. We are taking that to mean that she is once again disowning him and doesn't want to be a part of his life nor in our children's lives. After all the drama and stress she put on us, she says that she is done with him!!!! What a crazy w(b)itch!!!!! As much as it hurts my hubby, I really hope she stays out of all of our lives for good now!!

********************************* UPDATE!!!!***************************************
OK, after her call on that Saturday telling G that she is now done with him (again.) She ended up calling him at 6:00 AM the next Monday. While he was at work. Why? Oh, just to reiterate the fact that she was done with him!!!!!!!!! WTF!! G was crushed and so hurt. She is seriously crazy! HOWEVER.......after all that drama and bs (I had to tell the nurses that she was not premitted to visit, giving them her name and having to have our visitors check in with them) she tahnkfully didn't show up at the hospital. My BIL came on Friday (the day after the baby was born) and informed us that the errand excuse was all a lie. (Supposedly the errands were needed to be ran for our niece's dance recital that evening...Friday night.) We found out from BIL that the dance recital was in fact on Thursday and the only thing that MIL had planned for Friday was a samll tree lighting ceremony....she threw a fit about a tree lighting cermeony? The nerve of that women still amazes me. (She wrote on her fb a comment about how upset she is about the choices I have made.....ME!!! I am only reacting to what she has done to us. I'm not comfortable being around, nor having my children around her bc of what she has done.********

2 more weeks!!!!!!!!!

YIKES!!! Although I am only 37w3d, Baby G is set to come 2 weeks from today (Dec.15.) I'm excited, but nervous! I still have all my fears about how I am going to be able to handle being a Mommy to two (a really needy toddler and a newborn.) But, now I am starting to fear the spinal/epidural. My experience with Kiwi was not a pleasant one at all.

I have had no contractions, and the doc says that I am not dilated at all. I still have major back pain alot, but now I also have extreme muscle pain on the upper left side of my tummy (just under my beast.) It is awful. I can't wait for all the pains to go away, and to meet, see and hold my baby!!

catching up... 33 weeks!! (oh, and an EA update)

Has it already been 5 weeks already?! My goodness how time flies. Sorry, I have had a lot going on here.

Last time I posted was shortly after my Sept. 21st doc appt. My next appt after that was set for 3 weeks later. Two days before my appt the office calls me to reschedule because my doc had a family emergency. I made my appt with the only other doc in the practice that I had seen (only one time at that,) for the day after my original appt. Well, it ended up that I would have to reschedule that appt too. G's grandmother passed away unexpectedly and we had to go out of state to for that. We were gone a week, in AZ. Let me just tell you that it was hot as hell in AZ....in OCT!!!! G was gone mostly all day tending to the estate and those matters. So, it was just me, my huge 30 week belly, and Kiwi, a rambucious 2 year old!! It was exhausting!! As soon as we got back, I called my doc to set up the earliest appt they had. I learned that my doc was still out with her emergency and was not expected to return until Nov. I made an appt for this past Tues., the 25th. I made it with the doctor I had seen one other time.

A day or two after I made my appt, the office called me. It was finally the c-section scheduler calling. It had taken her 4 1/2 weeks to call me!! (WTF!!) She called on Friday, about half hour before their office closed. She informed me that my c-section was all set for the 14th at the outdated, small (only 6 maternity rooms) hospital!!!! WHAT?! I tried to correct her and informed her that my doc and I had set the date way back at my very first appt at like 10 weeks, the 13th, that we had confirmed that date at my last appt on 9/21. I also tried to correct her about the hospital. She "sweetly" told me that I had no other options bc all the other hospitals were full and if I didn't want to deliver at the one she could set the surgery at, then I would just have to go into labor. Then she said have a good weekend and hung up!!! What a sweet lady!! I literally hung up the phone and called G crying my eyes out. (Kiwi was so upset for me, she offered to get me a bandaid. Too cute.) I ended up calling my Mom (who was on vacation on the East coast) crying my eyes out. I couldn't call the lady back bc the office was closed. So, I called the hospital I wanted to deliver at (well, not my original choice bc my original hospital, the new one, still doesn't have a contract with my insurance!! But G and I toured another on of the local hospitals who just opened a new women's center. We were impressed, so that is where we decided to deliver.) I left a message with the nurse there. Then I called the po-dunk hospital they set my c-section at. I wanted to see what they had to offer. I was totally disappointed! The nurse (although really great and nice) informed me they only have 6 maternity rooms. They are actually closing that part of the hospital bc of the new women's expansion at their sister hospital (where I want to deliver.) They have no private rooms, which means that I can't have anyone stay the night! That was not an option for me. As I know that after a c-section you aren't supposed to move out o bed for 24 hours (at least that is what I was told after Kiwi's.)

Monday morning I got a call back from the nurse at the hospital I want to deliver at. She left me a message basically saying that they do have openings and that maybe it was just my doctor who wasn't able to to do the surgery that day. She suggested that I see if another one of the doctors in the practice could do my surgery. So, I called my doc's office. I spoke with a really nice lady on the phone. Told her about the awful way I was treated by the surgery scheduler there and inquired if I could speak to the other doctor about my suergy. The other doctor was on call, but she left her a message. I wasn't too worried bc I was set to see her the next day anyway.

Tuesday afternoon, we get to the doctor's (5 weeks after my last appt. 2 weeks over due.) Come to find out that the doctor I was supposed to see was just called to deliver a baby. GREAT!! I had already been in the waiting room a good 20 minutes, so I begged to see the third doctor in the practice. (I was already over due for my appt., plus it is a huge hassle to make a late afternoon appt that G can attend. I have to have someone there to watch Kiwi, and my parents were still out of town.)The other doctor agreed to see me, thank God! Everything is going well with Baby G!! We then discussed my c-section nightmare. She said that she would talk to the scheduler and see what they could do about trying to fix the issues. Honestly, at this point I didn't care too much about the date, I just wanted to make sure I delivered at the right hospital.

The next day I got the call. Baby G is now set to be born, at the right hops ital, on Dec. 15th!!! I am still secretly hoping I'll go into labor on the 13th. :) That way we will all have lucky 3's in our bdays. (Mine is the 30th of Nov., Kiwi the 23rd of July and G is March 5, so 3/5. Plus, both my siblings are born of the 3rd of the month.) I go back in for my next appt on the 9th. I'm sooooooooooooooo ready to not be pregnant anymore. My back is killing me. LOL.

On the EA front, I got an email today from the couple we had "matched" with. It seems that perhaps I'm some sort of adoption lucky charm! :) They got the call on Friday that a BM choose them. She is due Dec. 8th. So, they could become parents before Baby G even gets here!! I'm so happy for them! I really hope this works out for them.

28 weeks!!

Well, I have nothing new to report!! Baby G is doing well! He is a moving and shaking in there. My last doc appt was the 21st and I was able to set his birthday, Dec. 13th (unless he decides to come early and put me in labor.) I'm so excited!! Still waiting for the surgery person to call and set the time and stuff. But, I guess there is no rush. The hospital I am hoping to deliver at just opened recently and still doesn't have a contract with my (very common) insurance provider. So, I am hoping that by Dec. they will have the issues worked out. I have maternity tours set for the other 2 hospitals locally as well, just in case.

I go back in to the doc the 12th. I only had a 3 week wait this time. Then after that it'll go to 2 week apart appts, then once a week. Yikes!! I'm so close it is scaring the crap outta me!! Only 2 1/2 months left and I have too much to do still!!!

I'll leave you with a few belly pics to look at. The first was taken at 18 weeks and the second was taken at 26w4d. (I'm so bad this time around, those are the only two belly pics I have taken. Shame on me!!)

Baby G update....and a vent (sorry) UPDATED!

********** Parts of this post have been updated bc it seems that every one is nowing reading my blog and having issues.*******

So, Kiwi and I just did a two week roadtrip with my parents to OR. We stopped every few hours at some great places (many zoos, parks, etc.) to let Kiwi run and play (which is why it took 2 weeks.) It was a great trip!!

I am now 24 weeks along with Baby G. I feel him moving now. Low in my bladder it feels like. He is doing great and everything seems to be progressing as it should.

Now, I really need to vent. (Feel free to stop reading if you wish.) First though, happy news!! Just before my trip, I found out that one of my best friends and her hubby are expecting their first baby!!! I am so happy and excited for them. This baby was planned and very much looked forward too. (Early this year, they had unplanned pregnancy that ended in an early miscarriage. It was awful!) They are amazing people and will be the best parents! I can't wait to meet their little one. (Due to arrive early April.) OK, now the vent. If you've read my blog before, then you know that I have MAJOR in law issues. You also know that last May (2010) both my MIL and SIL disowned G (and Kiwi and I as well.) They literally told him that he was no longer a part of their lives (SIL went on to say that G was no longer her daughter's uncle.) Awful, disgusting, unforgivable things. Anyway, MIL cam crawling back begging for forgiveness w/in a few months. However, would never tell me that she was sorry, or that she would never again do anything like that, nor would she tell me that she would finally agree to and follow the boundaries. Therefore, I wouldn't go around her, nor would dI take Kiwi around her. She cried and complained at Christmas time bc she didn't get to see Kiwi. However, I (yes...me!!)took the first step and contacted her at Christmas to see if she was willing to tell me that she would agree to the boundaries that G and I had set up to protect ourselves. She never got back to me. So, in May of this year, after begging from G to go to our niece's bday (that same niece he was no longer to see) since both SIL and her ex (niece's dad) are both deployed in the Navy. I (yes, me again) reached out to MIL again to see if she was ready yet. She half hearted agreed. So, we went to the party. But I didn't speck to her, nor did I allow her to be alone with Kiwi. Anyway, Ithink I am rambling, I'll try to get on track. Our going to the party impressed SIL so much that she decided to send numerous gifts to Kiwi for her bday in July. This is the first time since the disowning that she has contacted us. (Except in Aug. to spew hatred and lies at us, then tell us to never contact her again. REal mature.) So, I emailed her to thank her for the gifts, and since she had made the contact, I decided that it would be fair then for me to finally be able to discuss the lies that she had said the year before. Clear the air... and I also gave her the chance to apologize and agree to never do the negative things again in order to be a part of Kiwi'w life. Her response to me was a big F you!! She told me to never contact her again. Basically I am not worthy enough to her (or MIL) to be able to have a conversation with either rof them, to be able to stand up for myself an my family, or to even defend myself. I was livid and told her that she was right, I have no reason to contact her ever again bc she is not a part of my life or my children's lives and she never will be....bc of her own actions. Me agreeing with her started a storm of nasty fb postings about me. To which G defended me and his sis treated awful, as she normally does. Our new SIL (married to G's brother last year) even posted that I was mean and hurtful and how could I keep Kiwi away from family. (Hello!? Is she really that naive, or has she just been lied to this past year? SIL and MIL disowned us, not the other way around. I now have to protect my children to make sure that they won't be hurt like G was by his own flesh and blood.) ANYWAY..... back on to my point..... (sorry this is so long.) While I was on my trip G called to say that our 6 yr old niece spilled the beans that BIL and our new SIL are pregnant (due end of April) with their first. He had to find out not from his brother, or his mom, but our niece.... lovely! (Updated: the fact that he learned this from his niece greatly upset G! He hates being the black sheep of his fam, recently bc of me, however he has always felt that way.)Now that he does know, his mother has been treating him awful. Throwing it his face that BIL is pregnant. (I have no clue why. They weren't planning this baby, she is still in school and he just took his first "real" job, they have 1 car and are both very immature!!)[Updated: Apparently they were planning the baby, and had been ttc for a few months w/o telling anyone. Secondly, perhaps it is their age or the fact that BIL is always acting so young that I think that they are immature. Although lately they don't seem as immature to me. Maybe it is the fact that I can "see"into their lives via her blog, where as before my only insight into them were G's words or my own observations on the few incounters I've had with them.) G's bio dad was never a part of his life, however his grandparents were. 3 years ago his Grandpa passed away. His mom is now throwing it in his face that BIL has decided to name the baby (if it is a boy) after him. (It isn't even his own grandpa, as BIL is half brothers with G.) When G got defensive and said that we are naming Baby G's middle name after MIL's own father, she said..."well, it isn't his first name!!" (How disgusting!!! She hated Kiwi's name and called he "that baby" instead.) She is also throwing it in G's face that no matter what new SIL's family does (as they hate BIL and basically treat him how G's fam treats me,) they will NEVER keep the baby away from them!!!!! G is so hurt by all this BS! I just don't understand how a mother can treat her own son this badly.....over and over again. She is so immature and selfish that she can't take credit (I can't think of another word) for her own bad actions!!

Anyway, long vent....thanks to anyone who actually stuck around. ****** After reading this, I thought that I should add some details. This is pretty confusing w/o knowing a few things. First, the reason SIL and MIL disowned G was bc for the first time since we had been together (4 yrs at that point) he stood up for me, took my side, against the bullying an dabuse from his sis and mom. Neither of them liked that, as they like to have control over him. So, it started with SIL threatening to disown him, then actually doing it (saying nasty things.) Followed by his Mom disowning him, then his Grandma (mom's mom) threatened to sell his horse (that she had given him years before as a graduation gift.) All of them did this (in my opinion, in hopes that he would flip sides, as he always did. (But, he stood his ground.) That is how disgusting these people are. Second, our niece is being raised by MIL bc SIL got orders last Aug. to go to HI for 3 years. She choose to not take her daughter with her (she isn't much of a parent anyway) but instead to have MIL raise her, along with our niece's dad (who was deployed at the time, and they were just going through the divorce.) Niece's dad is currently deployed again, so MIL is raising her alone. Which is why Gcan see niece. Whil eI was gone on th etrip, he got together 2 times with his mom and niece.

BIG u/s....

So, life has been hectic for me. All within a few weeks of each other, both computers crashed, G's cars tranny goes out, my debit card number gets hacked and the idiot bought a flight to Sydney (followed by my bank canceling my card, and a wait for the new one,) Kiwi and I both caught colds (and are still recovering.) All of this right before our planned (possible) 2 week OR roadtrip (for Kiwi and I, along with my parents. G has to work.) We head over to my parents for the night, then leave bright and early tomorrow. Should be fun......hopefully. (Fingers crossed for a cooperative kid.)

I did my 20 week u/s on Weds. of last week. I was miserably sick and just wanted to fall asleep as I lay there (for nearly an hour.) They confirmed that Baby G is in fact a boy (YAY!!) and when I was able to open my eyes, I saw some great shots of him. It wasn't through my OB, so I didn't get the confirmation that everything is good. The tech. said that I am measuring on track, so that is good!!

Well, I have a screaming toddler in bed and a blasting headache. (Finally taking a break from packing.) Have a great August all. (I know I'll be back in time for my 23 week appt on the 25th.)

19 week u/s.... not so BIG

It was great to have my parents, Kiwi and my brother (only missing G) there with me on Tues. for my u/s. I was bummed to learn that it would not be the BIG one that I thought it would be. Apparently my OB sends out for the BIG u/s. So, I'll make an appt for next week.

Everyone saw Baby G and were completely amazed at the miracle of him, modern science and u/s.

BIG weekend and an EA update!!!!!

Hi all. Sorry, I have been awful at blogging since the ivf.

This Saturday Kiwi turned 2 years old!!! I can't believe my "baby" is already 2! The time does fly! On Friday we went to water play park (Think wadding pool with kiddie slide set in it and water features squirting all over) with one of Kiwi's best friends (her Mom is also one of my best friends.) We had fun, but the water was way too cold and Kiwi got very cold very quickly. We spent more time warming up then we did swimming. Bt it was fun none-the-less. Then the big day...... Saturday G actually took off from work. We went to my parents area and took Kiwi to her favorite park. It has a small zoo in it, as well as a train to ride and pony rides too. We did it all!!! She had a blast. That evening we had a small family get together with pizza and cupcakes, at my parents. My extended family came. My brother even flew in form London, England!! (Only missing my sister and Grandma on my Mom's side.) It was fun! The big event was yesterday. We, along with my parents and brother took her to Disneyland!!!! She had a blast. G and my brother had to leave early (G for work an my brother for other engagements) but, we stayed late an saw the fireworks. It was a great day!! Kiwi had a blast! I'm so exhausted! LOL.

Now, an update on EA (embryo adoption.) I am a big planner. Late last year, I decided to try and fin a good home for the current embryos we had frozen, as well as any that would result from this recent cycle. Somehow I came across a women's blog. She was starting the process of either domestic or embryo adoption. (I literally stumbled upon her blog, from another blog I follow. Or maybe she was a blog of a blog. LOL.) Anyway, after reasing and following her blog for awhile I felt inclined to contact her and see if they would possibly be a match for our embryos. (This was in Nov. 2010.) She emailed me back and asked what we were looking for, regarding them and EA. I promptly got back to her, but then never heard another word from her. I assumed that we weren't a match after all. I continued to follow her blog, and she mine. But never again had contact about EA.

I then turned to Miracles Waiting and found an amazing couple. We built a great friendship and talked via email daily, from Jan. until I had my ivf in March.(We talked about everything, not just EA. It was really great.) After the ivf our contact became less frequent. Kiwi needed more attention from me so my computer time became less. But, I also felt strange bc here I was pregnant and she wasn't. I didn't want her to think that I was rubbing it in or anything. (Not that she would've at all. It was just in my head.) One day I got an email from her (not unusual at all) but, it wasn't our normal "hi, how are you? Did you watch the show last night" emails. It was early in June, and she had become a mother! We had told them to continue presuing all options, regarding adoption, bc our ivf was still months away. (We knew they were with a domestic agency.) They had gotten a call one day saying that their son was just born and awaiting their arrival at the hospital! I was so happy for her! But on the flip side I was sad about our embryos. Her email had said that in the future the would be hoping to do EA. G and I didn't want our embryos to sit in the freezer for a long time. Plus, now they had a boy.....and the majority of our embryos were male. I didn't know if they would want to have 2 boys, or if they would just want to adopt a girl/ girl embryos. So, with a heavy heart, I began my search again.

I went onto Miracles Waiting again, but wasn't impressed. Nothing felt "right" to me like they had. THEN, I decided to check the blogs I follow (just like I have been bad at posting, I have been equally bad at following. Sorry ladies.) There, on my friends blog, the same friend I had contacted in Nov., there was a post about EA. Her blog had made a turn to domestic adoption. So, I was shocked to see a post about EA. Her post basically said that they are interested in EA again. It felt like it was a sign. So, I swallowed my fear (of rejection) and contacted her again. Nearly a week later, I got a response....the response. Yes, we may be a match. She had felt that way the entire time, but just didn't know how to express it to me after so long. We have now been talking, via email, for the past few weeks. Things seem to be going well. So well in fact, her and her husband are thinking of making a trip to CA to meet us in Nov. I'm excited and nervous!!

I will let you all know how it goes, how it continues to proceed.

In other news, we go in tomorrow for our next u/s. This one will be the BIG one, although I am only 19 weeks and not 20. My parents will be joining Kiwi and I , as well as my brother. I am so excited to share this with all of them. I'll let you know how it goes. Have a great day.

Baby appt yesterday!! 15 weeks

We had our baby appt yesterday! Kiwi and G went with me. (It was G's first time to see his little guy.) Kiwi was so cute waving to Baby G and talking to him. Again, Baby G was very active. We were able to get a very quick glimpse of a penis though .....YAY!!!! G is thrilled! Everything is going smoothly with the pregnancy and he is growing just fine. We go back in at 19 weeks for our BIG u/s.

first OBGYN appt!!!

Today was my first OBGYN! It was also the first time I've done an u/s w/o G our one of my parents and Kiwi there. Baby G (that is what we'll call our little guy. As we are doing the guys as G's and us girls as Ks) is measuring great! He was a very active little guy today. (I was so hoping for a mellow little one this time. Kiwi is a handful and a half!!!!)

About my itching. Doc said it could be a reaction to the PIO shot, or to my soap or detergent. We shall see soon if it is the shot (hopefully.) As last night was my last shot!!! YAY!!! I finish the rest of the progesterone tomorrow. I am so excited!!

Another cool thing I found out today...... since Kiwi was a c-section, Baby G will be too. Doc is saying it will be set a week before my due date. So, looks like I will get my 3 in his bday!!!! He'll be born 12/13/11 if all goes well!!!

hope everyone is doing well.

Bad blogger!!!

I haven't gotten online in ages!!! So sorry. Plus, life is pretty boring. Nothing new going on, really.

I finally pulled out the maternity clothes. Today I am wearing a pair of jeans. They are too big, but better than the rubber band trick (that was holding my pre-prego jeans together.)

Te pregnancy is going well. We will be 12 weeks along on Monday!! I can'[t believe it. I go to my first OBGYN appt Monday as well. YAY!! I am still super exhausted, a little nausea still....but the worst thing lately is the itching. I get welts and itch like crazy!! I think I might be allergic to the progesterone or something. I'll ask about it when I see the doc. I do end all meds (except baby aspirin) on the 7th....YAY!!!!

Kiwi has hit the terrible twos with a vengeance!!! She is driving me CRAZY!!!!!!! Tantrums non stop! We are supposed to take a road trip to see my sister this summer....that should be fun with!! LOL.

See, like I said, nothing really new here.

We graduated!!!

Today was our last RE appt. We have officially graduated to an OBGYN!!! YAY!! Our little guy is growing well. His heartbeat was 176 today. I am so excited that everything is going good so far. I have had major nausea (no vomiting though, thank goodness) and exhaustion with this pregnancy. We will hit the 9 week mark on Monday.

Ultrasound... the count is in!

Just returned form our (baby count)u/s. I am very happy to report that ONE baby is growing in there!! His heart beat was at 114. It was amazing. Although G was not able to make the appt bc of work, Kiwi and my parents were all able to be in the room and see and hear our newest addition!! :) We are currently 6w3d along, and are due 12/19/11.

I go back in 2 weeks for another u/s. Feels weird to do that bc last time I "graduated" to my OBGYN after my first u/s. (I think it was bc we lived nearly 3 hours away from the RE.)

Yesterday G and I celebrated 4 years of wedded bless. Tonight we are going to Medieval Times, and my parents took Kiwi for the entire night. (Too bad I have to wait until 8 weeks along before we can DTD. LOL.)

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter everyone! We will be spending the day with my family. Then, Kiwi and I are heading to Vegas to visit the G'ma and Great G'ma until Weds. Thursday is my 4 year wedding anniversary with G. Friday is our u/s and then Saturday we have a bday party for one of Kiwi's little friends followed later that evening my a Tastefully Simple party hosted by one of my longest friends (she gets offended when I say oldest. LOL. We've know each other since jr. high. She is also an ivf Mommy.) So, as you can tell, a busy week ahead. Today, was the start of our craziness though. Woke everyone up early for a local egg hunt, followed by a trip to San Diego wild animal park with some of G's family friends, Easter egg dying once we made it home (after dinner.) I'm way exhausted!! I over did it today!! I need to rest and relax.

Hope everyone has a great Easter and a wonderful beginning of the week. I probably won't update here until after our u/s on Friday.

beta #2

Had bw for beta #2 today. It is up from 71 on Weds to 533!!!! Crazy! I go in on the 29th for the u/s to see how many boys we're having!!

Drum roll please...... BETA is in

I have had a painful headache all day (for the past few days as well) and some nausea today as well.

Beta was today....... POSITIVE!!!!! We're pregnant! Beta was 71! i go back on Monday for beta #2. I'm so exited!!

Tomorrow, Tomorrow....

I didn't break down!!! I'm so nervous and scared! One more day of being PUPO!! I'll go in at 9:30ish (if we get out butts up on time) and test. Wish me luck, pray, cross your fingers....everything...please. Thank you

To pee, or not to pee?

The first two cycles (ivf then fet) for Kiwi, I never did POAS. I was too scared of getting a BFN!!! This time, I told myself that I was going to do it. I wanted the memory to keep. (Wither the actual stick, or a pic of it.)

However, as Weds. beta rapidly approaches, I am questioning if I am going to do it. I am all nerves. Butterflies in the tummy and all. I'm way too scared for a BFN. G is scared too. He said that he thinks we shouldn't POAS. (He is that scared about it.)

I have one part of me wanting to do it bc G will not be with me when I get the call on Weds after the beta. I will be spending the day with my parents, while G works, and probably won't be heading home until late evening. Which I think would be best anyway. I don't want to be driving when the news comes in, nor do I want to be sitting at home alone either. (Especially if the news is bad.)

Way too nervous!!!!! I haven't felt any symptoms. Which has me freaking out. I guess I do have a very heightened sense of smell lately, but honestly, I had that after the ER and prior to ET. I've been really bitchy lately. That has me worried that AF might be coming. Then again, I remember that G and I had a huge blow out fight on beta day last time, with Kiwi. So, maybe bitchy is good. LOL.

I want Weds. to get here sooner, but then I don't......bc I am scared that I'll hear the awful words again, BFN.

Oh BOY!!! ET post

So, I am alive!! It is awful to lay in bed for 3 days when you aren't sick or even tired. I was looking forward to the break, but after a few hours, I just started getting stiff (neck and back.) Today I am finally up, out of bed!! YAY!

Monday, 4/4, was our ET. We got there and had the gender meeting with our RE. To our surprise, they were able to get 7 good embryos! ALL 7 were boys!!!!! Seriously! Crazy huh? We had 3 ab-normal embryos. 1 had Turner's Syndrome, another had no sex at all and the third had XXX, an extra female marker. Weird.

They transferred 2 in, and now I sit here PUPO!! My beta is set for Weds., the 13th. I can't wait!!

Today is ET day!!!!!

I am too excited to sleep!!! Today is the day we'll get prego with our boy!!!

RE never did call yesterday with a gender update. Guess we'll be surprised when we get there. :) Please pray, wish, hope, everything...that all goes well an dthat this works for us. Thank you.

cell stage report

So, all is set for a 10 am ET on Monday!!! YAY!! I talked to my doc about my concern over my ever growing tummy (bloat and pain.) He said it may be constipation, so to take Metamucil. He'll check it out on Monday when he sees me. I seriously look over 5 months pregnant and feel awful and sore.

So, got the break down of where are embryos are regarding cell stage. We have 12 embryos growing strong. 1 @ stage 9, 5 @ stage 8, 1 @ 7, 2 @ 6 and 3 @ stage 4. I don't know what that all means exactly, but I am thinking that it is good!!

Fert report, day after ER

G got the call from my RE. Looks like 12 embryos have fertilized and are growing good. (The othe r2 have fertilized too, I guess, but are behind a little.) YAY!!!!!!! Grow embies grow!!

Eggs

I'm in so much pain!!! They were able to get 14 eggs today.....14!!!!! 12 of which the RE said were mature. So, I am super relieved. Now., to go rest some more.

(pull that) TRIGGER (shot)

So, my appt today put my mind at ease. My RE told me that he is certain that we'll get at least 10 eggs. However, he believes that only 8 will be of good quality. I feel better!

I am all set for ER on Weds. morning at 10 am!!!! I will do my Trigger shots tonight (still waiting to hear if I do one or both) at 11:30 pm. G is the one that gives me my shots, so it is going to be a rough time. He wakes up at 2 am, so he is in bed before 8 pm. So, I'll have to wake him up. He is NOT a good person to wake up. There is kicking, screaming and many more awful things....that he doesn't recall doing. LOL. I may just have to suck it up and do the shot myself. However, I just don't think I can mentally do it.

I am planning on staying at my parents Tues and Weds nights. (As they live closer. Plus, I'll need all the help I can with watching Kiwi after the ER.) So, I probably won't be able to get online and update until I am home Thurs. night. (Same applies to my 2-3 days of bed rest after ET.) Sorry if I go MIA for a little while. I will update as soon as I am able to.

Progress?

So, had another u/s and bw appt yesterday. (Thankfully both my parents were able to come with me. My Mom even got a lesson on how to give shots (progesterone.) As she'll be the one to give them to me while I am on bed rest after ET. G works and is already having to get off 2 days for the ER and ET. He'll be getting a break at home while Kiwi and I stay with my parents.)

If you thought I was worried about my 10 little eggs growing in my uterus, then watch out!!! Yesterday, I was downsized to maybe 8!!!! I'm so worried! The nurse said that we only get 4 or 5 to fertilize, they may suggest that we don't do the pgd. The entire point of doing this ivf (fresh cycle) was to complete out family with a "blood" boy for G. I've known all along that G may not even contribute any male sperm, but i never went over in my head the possibility that we wouldn't get enough embryos to even test.

Other than that, we are still all set for a Weds. ER.

I'm exhausted!!!!!!!!!!! Today's appt.

This cycle is kicking my butt!! I am so sore and completely exhausted. I want to go nap, hide under the covers for the rest of the day. (Do you think G will go for that? LOL.)

Well, "Wand-a" was her usual pushy, mean self. LOL. The doc saw no cyst in my right ovary today, good thing. He said that I have 5 eggs on each ovary, so we should expect at least 10 eggs at ER. He said that 10 is "ok." I had 14 last time, but he reminded me that I am older now. I'm nervous bc we were told that if we didn't make that many embryos, they could choose not to test (pgd.) Last time we had 14 eggs, and 7 embryos. I'm so nervous now that we'll get only 5 embryos. Which will lower our chances of boy embryos!!! I'm just worried, but I know that this is all out of my hands.

I go back on Friday for another u/s and bw appt.

Yesterdays bw

So, I was able to get into my RE's office yesterday. I did my bw (took a whole 2 minutes) and got 2 more boxes of Bravelle. My meds will be there waiting on me Weds. when I go in for my next Re appt. (u/s with my friend "wand-a" LOL and more bw.)

Yesterdays bw came back good, so I am still on the same med levels. I have little blue, purple bruises (one not so little.) On my tummy. Plus, I think I am allergic to the glue in the bandaids I havem I have red bandaid marks too. :(

DOH!!!

So, it occurred to G and I tonight, that I only have 1 box (5 vials) of Bravelle left. (After I had taken my nightly dose.) I won't get my meds until Weds. and I am supposed to take 5 vials a night! DOH!!! Originally they had prescribed 3 vials, but my doc called after that and upped my does to 5 a night. I was going to go to a lab local to my house tomorrow to have my bw done there, however, I think I am now going to drive to my RE's and do it there. In hopes that they will have an extra pack or two of Bravelle that they can give me. (I don't know how many vials I am going to be taking starting tomorrow, as that is what the bw is for. However, I doubt I'll have enough for 2 nights with the 5 I have left.) I just hope that they are in this office tomorrow (the office I go to is a sub office. The main office is in OC.)

Wish me luck!!

and we're off!!!!!

Appt went well today (beside the fact that I had cyst on my right ovary. Left one looked great and the RE isn't concerned with the cyst.)We paid the fortune for the ivf!!! I start my injections and oral meds tonight!!

This time I am doing Lupron, Bravelle and Menopur! G gets to play darts with my tummy again. LOL.

Basically, I take my meds and injections nightly. Here is a time frame break down.
Monday, 3/21: bw at a lab close to my home (taking Kiwi to play with a friend) at the crack of dawn (actually 8-9 am, but close enough to dawn for my taste. LOL.)After this bw, my doses for meds could change depending on what the results are. Weds. 3/23 and Friday 3/25: RE appt (u/s and bw probably) at the office close to me. Monday 3/28: RE app at their main office. (I will get new instructions then.) THEN, if everything goes as planned: Monday: 3/30 ER and either a day 3 ET on 4/2 or a day 5 (which is the best) ET on 4/4!!!!!

So, on 4/4 I will PUPO!!!! (Pregnant until proven otherwise!!) How exciting!!!!

Tomorrow, tomorrow.....

Ok, I called this morning and set my appt for u/s and bw (and hopefully a timeline and meds order) to get this ball rolling! It is tomorrow at 10 am. Same time as G's for his SA. So, it'll hopefully work out that he will be able to do his thing and then help watch Kiwi during the u/s and stuff.

I'm so nervous and excited now!! In two weeks (or so,) I will be pregnant!! :) (Positive thinking!!)

Here we go......

AF came today, at day 27. How odd is she? 4 months + straight at day 26. Then, the day of my RE appt....day 26....she didn't come. Waited until day 28. Now this month day 27? Goodness!!!

I called and left a message for my RE. If I don't hear back from them by tomorrow afternoon, I'll call the office. (I left the message on his cell tonight.) I had called earlier in the day to set G's appt for his SA. That is all set for 10 am on Saturday, at RE's main office in the OC. Hopefully I'll get an appt time then too. As, I know they make appts for day 3-4. Since they are closed on Sunday, I hope it will be Sat. (My parents are helping my sis and her BF move out of state this weekend, and won't be home until Tues. Perfect timing!! Geez! LOL. WE got a 2 week notice that they were moving. But it is something that they have wanted for years. However, with them gone, and G working hours away. I'd have to ask a friend to sit Kiwi if I have any appts.)

Well, I will update when I hear anything. :)

Fablulous uterus!!

So, mid cycle u/s done. CHECK!!! That was awful and painful, ouch! I wish sometimes my RE was a she and not a he. That way maybe he'd be a little more gentle. I felt violated. LOL.

He said that I have a fabulous uterus and that it is perfect! Great news!! He then showed me my "one egg for the month." (His words.) We had a talk about my prolactin levels. He let me decide if I wanted to go on treatment now, wait and do nothing, or test again today. I choose treatment. So, I have a prescription for Dostinex.

I now for wait AF again!!!

got my bw results

So, the nurse called me today to tell me the results of my prolactin bw. Seems that it is only slightly raised. (She said it was at 36, but didn't say the normal range, and I didn't ask.) So, as of right now, no meds. They will re-test as we get farther along, and go from there!! So, good news, well, better than I thought at least.

The next step....a baby step

Alrighty, we are underway!!!

I called the RE and we set my next (mid cycle) appt for the 2nd of March. I think I'll get a timeline and my meds then. I am excited!!!

FINALLY!!!

The wait is FINALLY over!!!! AF arrived this evening about 8:45 pm. So, I'll call my RE tomorrow, then wait until the mid cycle appt. YAY!!!

Still waiting...so here's some ABC's of me

Still waiting on AF!!!! My boobs hurt (and have for a few days,) I have been bitchy (for a week now) and crampy (for the past few days.) I feel like I've started, only to run to the bathroom and be disappointed!! WTF!!!

So, as I wait, here's something interesting to do....and for you to learn more about me.

(A) Age: 30

(B) Bed Size: Queen (which is just way too small for G, I and the 2 cats and one of our dogs.)

(C) Chore You Hate: All of them!! Folding clothes....I guess

(D) Dogs? 2, Shiloh Michael (who's about 8 yrs old) and Avery Lynn (who's about 2)

(E) Essential Start Your Day Item: toothbrush

(F) Favorite Color: green, aqua

(G) Gold or Silver? Silver


(H) Height: about 5'2

(I) Instruments You Play: I played the sax in jr high

(J) Job Title: SAHM

(K) Kids: Kiwi, my ivf miracle....baby #2 hopefully oh the way soon

(L) Live: Born and raised in Southern California

(M) Mom's Name: Kristi

(N) Nicknames: too many. Kimbo is popular

(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? had to stay overnight due to a bad reaction to the meds during my tube removal surgery....and 2 nights when I had Kiwi

(P) Pet Peeves: way too many to list. Racist or bigots

(Q) Quote from a Movie: not my fav, but I've watched this movie so much lately "Better out than in" from Shrek

(R) Right or Left Handed? Righty


(S) Siblings: 2 younger and 2 bro in law, 1 almost bro in law, 1 sis in law

(T) Time You Wake Up? 10 am is when I get out of bed

(U) Underwear: bikini briefs

(V) Vegetable You Dislike: asparagus

(W) What Makes You Run Late: everything. I am naturally late all the time. LOL

(X) X-Rays: Too many to list.


(Y) Yummy Food You Make: I've made some great chocolate peanut bitter cakes

(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Oh, too many. Monkeys, lions, bears, elephants, giraffes

Hopefullu I'll have news tomorrow!!! Have a good weekend all

WAITING!!!

Oh how I hate to wait!!! We are still waiting!! AF, where are you?!

And we wait!!

So, for the last 5 months or so, AF has come every 26 days like clockwork. However, today (26 days after last months AF,) nothing!!!!!! So, we wait.

RE wants me to call when AF comes. Then he'll see me mid cycle to check that my eggs are developing as they should and that my uterus is lining well. Then (from what I understood,) meds will be ordered....and then a few weeks after taking the meds, transfer time!!!

So, we wait!!! I did get bw done to check my prolactin levels. (I have a tumor on my pituitary gland, plus I BF Kiwi for 13 months.) I'll probably have to take meds to lower the levels again this time, as I did the other 2 times.

It felt weird to leave his office w/o a pill or injection to take. :)

Anxious!!! Have some strange feelings I need to get out...

{This post was written while I was suffering a major case of nerves. I am not trying to be insensitve, as I know that my readers are all suffereing IF, and are still on their journeys to #1. I was just needing someone to tell me that how I feel is normal. I hope you all understand. I love my daughter and look forward to the day that I will hold my son. Just nerves. Thanks}

So, it is finally here, in 16 1/2 hours, I'll be at my RE appt. for baby #2. I don't know for sure if I'll be alone (G works, and my Mom will be helping my sister out after her surgery today) or if my Dad will go with me, taking Kiwi along too....or if he'll stay at my house and watch her(which might be best, as it is right around her nap time and we found out today that she has early pneumonia!!!!)Never the less, I have some strange thoughts and feelings nagging at me. I'm hoping if I vent them here, that someone will read them and reach out to me an help me figure this all out.

Perhaps it's nerves, but I am not as enthusiastic as I thought I'd be at finishing up my family. I mean, I know in my heart of hearts that I want more children. I don't want Kiwi to be an only child. I also know I want them close in age to her. (2 1/2 years is already further than I'd like.)I just have this sinking feeling. I'll try to explain.
- My marriage is in a funk. G works usually 6 days a week, 10 hours a day and he drives a 2 hour commute, one way. He leaves at 2:30 am, gets home about 4 pm and is in bed by 7:30 pm. We have no sex (TMI) life, as I never am in the mood (I haven't been since I had Kiwi.) Plus, we are both stubborn people, which leads to many, many disagreements. He also works so hard and is gone so much that once he does get home, he doesn't want to or can't (because he goes to bed, is too tired to) help out with anything, even Kiwi. all this leaves me feeling like I am in this alone. I don't want to add even more stress and burden (not that a baby is a burden at all) to us, him or me. I just can't continue doing everything on my own (w/o breaks) and then add another baby that I'll be taking care of all alone too.
- Kiwi is a handful!! I love her so much and am so blessed and thankful to have her, but she is so much more work than I ever imagined. (I was a nanny most of my adult years prior to having her.) I thought I was ready and prepared for having a kid. Boy, was I wrong! She is stubborn and strong willed. She constantly needs me...all the time. (Recently I have had a tiny bit of slack, where I can get somethings done w/o having to hold or entertain her constantly.) Am I being selfish in wanting to have another child? How is Kiwi going to take it? How will she be when I can't give her the attention she needs all the time? Then I have the awful thought of.....what if I have a little boy (or 2) and they are just like her?! Just as stubborn, strong willed and needy? I don't think I could handle it. I'd lose my mind. Especially bc I'd be doing it all alone.

Then I think about wither or not I am a good Mom now, as it is. Should I have another kid? I feel like I suck as a Mom. Especially bc I feel like I can't "control" Kiwi sometimes. But, I know that it really isn't me, nor my abilities as a Mother. I know it is just her personality, her temperament. But, boy I do not want another Kiwi. She is a genius, but I want a mellow, easy going, go with the flow little boy. :)

Am I an awful person for feeling/thinking these things? Or does every mother go through similar thoughts/feeling when they are adding or planning to add to their family? I guess I want to know if this is normal. Or, do you think I should never have another kid? All these things I'm feeling, on top of an already stressful ivf process!!!!! Some insight, please. Thanks. I'm so scared to even say anything. Because, I'm not looking for someone to talk me out of my decision, but rather to talk me into it!! If that makes any since. I'm all butterflies in my tummy.

let the countdown begin

6 more days!!!! I'm so excited, and nervous. Our RE appt is in 6 days. I have a list of questions going. I'm bummed that G won't be able to go with me. Plus, I just found out that my sister has minor out patient surgery the day before, so my Mom may have to spend the 16th (day of our appt) with her, if she's not feeling well still. So, I may end up going to my appt completely alone, as my Dad will have to stay at my house and watch Kiwi. All that is making me more nervous.

On a lighter note, we had such a great time last weekend in San Diego. Sea World was a ton of fun. As I predicted though, the puppy back pack leash lasted a whole minute before she complained. :) However, there were so many of us adults there to encourage her to wear "Rufus" that she did, the entire day and the next at the Zoo as well.

Saturday we got a later start than I wanted to. I am not a morning person at all, so I overslept. Then, I hate having to wake Kiwi up, so I waited to the last possible minute to wake her. Which ended up rushing her bfast, but we hit the road only 10 minutes late. Get in the car, and notice I am nearly empty on gas. Great, made us later. However, fun day at Sea World....w/o a nap. Turned into a very rough night for all (except G who had been up since 2 am, and can sleep through anything as it is.) It took both my Mom and I 2 hours to get Kiwi to finally fall asleep. (Too much excitement, over tired, and being in the same room as Grandpa, Grammie, Daddy and Mommy made her not want to go to bed.) However, she woke up 45 mins later. Thankfully she fell back to sleep quickly, and I finally got to bed at midnight. That is, until 3 am, when she woke up again. That time she wasn't going back to bed at all. Finally at 5:15 G woke up and took her out for a drive.....for 2 hours!!! My parents and I got to sleep, but Kiwi didn't. He finally brought her back at about 7:30 am and she had just fallen asleep. Which was about the time we were all supposed to be getting up for bfast and the Zoo. I volunteered to stay and sleep with her for an extra hour, while everyone else ate. :)I was a grouch at the Zoo, but it still was a fun day. Great to see Kiwi get excited about the animals!!

I hope that everyone else had a good weekend. Anyone have Valentine's day plans? We don't celebrate it. It is such a Hallmark Holiday. My parents do come watch Kiwi for us once a month so we can have a date night, which we have planned for the 19th.

Another fun weekend ahead...which has turned me into one of "those" Mom's

12 days until our first ivf #2 appt!!!!! I'm so excited!!!

One of my Mom's best and longest friends (since elementary school) is coming for a visit. She, her hubby and daughter are escaping the cold of Iowa for sunny CA. They fly in today at sometime, hopefully, if the weather allows them. We'll be heading to San Diego for a fun filled weekend of seeing some amazing animals!! Going to Sea World (Kiwi loves Shamu, this will be her 3rd time going. She even sings the Shamu song that she heard back this summer) and then going to the Zoo (kiwi's first time going to the SD Zoo, it's huge and she loves the small zoos we've been to so far, so I know she'll love it.)

So with trips to two amusement parks, I was left with making a decision. One I swore I'd never make. LOL. It's official, I have turned into one of those Mom's who put their kid/s on a leash!!! Yuck!! One of my hugest pet peeves. I would always look at the parents with disgust and think" your kid isn't a dog." I mean, my goodness, a child should be able to hold your hand and behave well. LOL. HA HA HA!!! After Disneyland, I realized a)that she likes to run all over and b) doesn't like to even go into the stroller at all. So, my kid will be on a leash this weekend. (Please, no dirty glares if you see us. LOL.) Kiwi picked out an adorable puppy back pack style leash. Grandpa was there when we got it, so the dog even told him his name, Rufus. Hopefully she'll enjoy it and it won't be a waste of money. As I'm thinking that after being on her back for a few minutes she'll want it off.

I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Mommy to a genius!!!

Ok, I do feel very proud of Kiwi, and I have bragged a little on here about her above average vocal, speech and language abilities. I knew from her 12 month check up appt that she was at least 6 months ahead. However, I figured that she was smart, nothing more than smart. Especially when she walked later than most (14 months.) Well, today I learned that my kid is way more than just smart!!!

I took Kiwi in today for her 18 month check up. After waiting 30 minutes (during which Kiwi sang her ABCs all the way through several times, counted to 10 several times and told me what at least 20 animals say) the doctor finally comes in. "Hi. Is she laughing, smiling, babbling?" I said "yes,yes and actually, she talks." The doctor politely smiled and said ok. She look Kiwi over and said she looked great. She is still very petite, but doc isn't worried about it. GREAT!! I'm holding Kiwi in my arms and she says "I want down." So, I put her down onto the examination table (she likes to dance on the crinkle paper) not thinking anything of it. She talks way more than that and even sings whole entire songs. However, the doc stopped what she was saying and looked at me. "Did she just say "I want down?!" This is how the rest of the visit went:

Me: Yes. I told you, she talks.
Doc: She's a genius!!
Kiwi: (W/o being prompted) "Thank you Dr. Hurwitz (not an easy name to say, and she didn't butcher it even.)
Doc (jaw dropping open) This is like Twilight Zone stuff! No one at this age, or....(she trails off)....She's really a genius!!!
Me: (Blushing) Thank you.
Doc (cutting me off) No, you don't understand....she's a genius!! She must have an IQ of 160!!
Kiwi: (at this point is looking at a piece of paper with all her info on it, weight, etc.) A, B, C....
Doc: Genius!! You just don't get it!!! Here is what I want you to do.......(insert boring doc talk about what I should buy for her, blocks of different sizes, piano with colored keys so she can match the note to the color....blah blah.....) Look I literally have goose bumps (which she showed me, and she did.)
Doc: (walking out the door) She is a genius!!! I'm telling you, an IQ of between 140 and 160!!!

Well, what does all this mean for Kiwi? I don't want all this pressure on her. I just want her to be a kid and have fun. But goodness, it does feel good that I made a genius!! :)

I got an award!!!!

Wow, an award!!! My very first award. Although I don't feel very stylish, especially as I have really no clue what I am doing with this blog thing......I am still very thankful to have gotten this award. A huge thank you to Michelle

Here are the rules for the acceptance of the award:
1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you the award.
2. Share 7 things about yourself.
3. Award 15 other bloggers.
4. Contact these bloggers and tell them about the award.

So, now then, 7 things about me:

1.) I am a huge Coldstone junkie. Actually, more of a Mud Pie Mojo-alholic. We seriously go to Coldstone at least once a week. We know the workers by name. Kiwi even knows their names and thanks them for her ice cream. (Of coarse she shares with us, we don't give her her own cup or anything. LOL.)

2.) I had braces for 4 1/2 years and my teeth still aren't straight. Around the time of my 16th bday I said enough was enough and they were removed. Prior to braces, I had retainers my whole life (all through elementary school) and RB bands (which were braces, but a different name. They were only on my 4 top, front teeth.) My two to, front teeth came in all jacked up. LOL. The right one was completely sideways, and the left came in on the roof of my mouth. I had this very painful retainer with a metal scrapper thing that pushed the tooth to where it was supposed to be. Three times (once while I had braces) I had to have a retainer on top that used a key to turn it, making my mouth bigger. Basically my mouth was too small for all my teeth. (Even with having 4 teeth removed prior to getting braces.) It was awful for me and I'm sure a ton of money for my parents. I hope Kiwi (and any other kid/s we have) don't have my teeth issues.

3.) I'll admit it, I like the Bachelor/ette. I've watched every season but 3 maybe. (I didn't watch the London one all the way through, nor the one with the Prince, and I really didn't like Deanna from Brad's first season, so I didn't watch her season.) I guess I love the fairytale part of it. Plus, the drama and cat fights are always entertaining. :)

4.) I also love the Amazing Race! I literally watch it and think that it is me racing to win. I think of how I'd do at the challenge. Whether I would do the task, or if G would do it. OR, if it was family Amazing Race would be Dad do a task, or my mom. Would be better to race with? My brother does have the world traveling experience and is great with languages. The funniest thing though, is that I know G is sitting next to me doing the same thing (in his head) that I am. LOL.

5.) I hate cherries!! As you can tell from #1, I love ice cream. When Coldstone is not available (or when G has has enough of that,) we do go to Baskin Robbins. I recall one time that we ordered it to go, were driving home while I eagerly ate my treat....and wham, the gross taste of a cherry ruined the yumminess. LOL. I literally screamed for G to pull over. He must've thought I was crazy, or hurt or something. However, he pulled over on the side of the road (a less traveled street thank goodness) and I opened my door and spit the entire mouthful out. He was very pissed that I yelled for him to pull over for that....then he teased me forever about it. LOL

6.) I was a girl scout. I love the whole system of scouting and can't wait for Kiwi to be one. I was a scout from Daisy (Kindergarten) to Cadette (Jr. High.) My family moved when I was in 7th grade and the troops by us (as was told to my mom) were very cliquish and didn't fare well with new people. So, I didn't continue through high school. However, my Mom was a leader for over 20 years (from when I was in Kindergarten until well past when my little sister graduated high school.) She was always my leader (or co-leader) and my sister's. She made scouting amazing!! i really want her to be a co-leader with me for Kiwi. Along the scouting lines, I am proud to say that (with my Mom pushing her) my sister got her Gold Award (equal to a Boy Scout's eagle award.) Plus, my dad and all but 1 of his brothers all got their Eagle....and G is an eagle scout as well!!!

7.) I listen to and love country music. MY very first boyfriend got me hooked on it in Jr. High. I've listened to it since. Even while being teased by my entire family and all of my friends.(Who know seem to listen to at least some country.) :)There is s country western bar/club near where I love. I used to go every weekend, until about 3 years ago when I moved out of the area...and now that I am back, I've only gone once (while my parents sat Kiwi.) I love to line dance and was pretty darn good at it. If you haven't tried it, do it!!! It is great fun and great exercise.


Drumroll please...... ok, I am passing the award on to:

Breen at Champman Journey to a baby
Katie at From ivf to when
Shelly at I love you this much
I'm just a girl at I'm just being honest
Carli It's only life
Marilynat Trying to Conceive
Aly at The Infertility Overachievers
Rebecca at The Road Less Traveled
Both Jens at 3 babies, 2 Jens, 1 cause...embryo adoption!
Shona at A pgd blog
Krystal at Buzz off Infertility
Ms. Pollywog at Funny Little Pollywogs
Jenn at Got love, Been Married,now where the hell's the baby carriage
Gurlee at Infertility Musings
Kate at McMiracle

Oh, this was fun!!! Thanks again Michelle!!

Disneyland!!!!

We had such a great time at Disneyland last weekend!!! My parents went with us, and we all had a blast.

Kiwi's favorite rides were Dumbo and It's a small world. However, she loved them all. She still sings the Tiki Room song. :)Other than the rides, her favorite part of the day was the fireworks!!! The show was amazing! She sat on G's shoulders and was pounding his head scream "fireworks Daddy" the whole time! It was amazing to see (and hear.)

We were all very tired after that long day. But it was so worth having a fussy (nap time was overlooked) toddler. The memories and pictures are amazing. (I removed my Mom's face from the pic for her privacy.)

Appt. set!!!!!!

I am so excited! I just got off the phone with our RE. I made an appt to start the ivf. They called it a follow up appt. I thought that sounded strange, as it has been over 2 years since we did our fet. I am nervous and excited at the same time. Giddy!! I can't wait until Feb. 16th!!!

G got transferred to another base today (one that is 80 miles from our home!) So, he won't be able to go to many (if any, other than the one he needs to go to to contribute his part) of the appts. That totally sucks!! It'll take him (estimated)2 hours to get home everyday. However, my parents (the best parents ever) will be going with me to this appt. They have also agreed to go with me to any other ones I need/want them to go to.

I keep thinking that a year from now (or shortly after)I will have my family complete. I will have a little boy. Kiwi will have a baby brother!!!

Have a good weekend everyone! G works tomorrow. But Sunday is fun day!! Disneyland!!!!!

nothing new

Nothing new happening here. We went away for the weekend to our local mountains again. My parents have a cabin (really a 3 bedroom log type house.) It was nice a snowy there. We took Kiwi sledding for the first time. She loved it!!! It was such a nice relaxing weekend. Fire glowing in the fireplace, warm soup for lunches, rented movies, games to be played. My parents even watched Kiwi for us Saturday night so G and I could get a date in. We went and saw Little Fockers. It was funny, not as good nor funny as the first 2, but we enjoyed it. What a great weekend it was.

This week is going to be a fun and busy one. Weds. I am taking Kiwi to an indoor play pace. It is all set up for little ones. It has a grocery store, restaurant, farm, fire station, etc., that kids run. She loved it when we went a few months ago. This time, she'll enjoy it even more bc our friends will be there, as well as Curious George. We are going with my Mom's group. I've invited my parents to join us as well, since it is close to their home. Then that evening, my parents, G, Kiwi and I are meeting for dinner with one of my childhood friends. He actually was my neighbor growing up. He lives in NY, and is visiting his parents. We're all fb friends, and my mom set up the dinner. I can't wait to see him. It has been ages since I've seen him. THEN, Sunday is Disneyland!!!!!!! I'm so excited for that!! I'm such a kid when it comes to Disneyland. It is so magically for me. I can't wait to see Kiwi's face when she meets Mickey and Winnie the Pooh. Oh she'll have a blast!

Being a SAHM, I find things to do to entertain myself and Kiwi. I hate being couped up inside all day. So, I found an indoor play place close by. I started taking Kiwi once or twice a week. Then, we both made friends. Now I take her daily. We have formed a very good relationship with the owner and her son (who works there) as well as a dear friend and her daughter (who is 3 months older than Kiwi.) We have only been 1 since the 19th. Bc Kiwi was sick, and the place was closed the entire week after Xmas. Plus, our friend was away for the holidays (today was her first day back.) It was so great to go today and see our friends. It was amazing to see my friend pick up Kiwi and kiss her and hug her so tight, just like she was her own. We missed them. She has become one of my closest friends.

Welcome 2011!!!

Happy New Year everyone!! 2011 is here! I hope that this year sends everyone home with a baby (or gets everyone pregnant with a baby/ies.)

Boy, the week between Christmas and New Years fly by!!! I mean I knew the dates the entire time, but, it seemed like it was only a few days, not a whole week. I finally dawned on me last night, not bc it was the 2nd, but bc G happily exclaimed that Friday was pay day. I gave him a strange look and said, "yeah, last Friday, Christmas Eve, a few days ago." He looked at me like I was stupid and informed me that it was the 2nd.....yes, I know....he gets paid every two weeks, do the math. DUH!!!!!

We spent our days pretty busy. Returning gifts, buying things we got money for, going out to dinner. G went back to work on Monday after Christmas. He didn't have any vacation days, and we need the money. Then Tues and Weds Kiwi and I went to Vegas to visit my Grandma and Great Grandma. The big factors were that Kiwi was sick. She's had a cold since the 19th. (The cold was confirmed at her follow up appt on the 22nd. The follow up was to follow up from an appt 2 weeks before where fluid was found in her ears. The fluid was found at her follow up appt to the appt the day before Thanksgiving. The one where the nurse practitioner (NP) said she had an ear infection and a mild case of whopping cough. WHOPPING COUGH!? She's had all her shots! That dx sent G and I running to urgent care to make sure we didn't have it. Since we both had colds, and it was the day before Thanksgiving and we'd be seeing my family, didn't want to get anyone deathly sick. The PA at urgent care assured us that we didn't have it, and neither did Kiwi. Pissed me off that NP didn't give Kiwi a swab to check....but anyway!!!) The day we left for Vegas, Kiwi woke up throwing up mucus. Great!! I called the doc's office and asked if there was something she could take to help dry up the mucus. Nope. Humidifier and take her in the bathroom and run the shower was their answer. (The latter made her vomit everything she had eaten that day. Poor thing.) Finally took her in on Thursday to find out that the cold had turned into a sinus infection. She is still sick, vomited last night, and has had major blow out diapers (every time) since Saturday!!! Doc has today changed her meds. Hoping that she gets better soon!!!

We had a very quite New Year's Eve. Just the 3 of us at home. Kiwi went to bed at 9, and G watched movies and I read until midnight when the 2 of us counted down and started the year with a kiss. Then I went off to bed.

The 1st day of 2011 found me in bed, vomiting!!! Joy!! I spent all day in bed. I still have a cold, which I felt coming on since Thursday. I just want all this sickness to leave our house for good!!!!

I hope everyone else had a good NYE. We'll be taking Kiwi to Disneyland for the first time on the 16th!! I can't wait!!! She loves Mickey and Pooh Bear, so I know she'll have a blast.